King of Wands

God only knows how he's lodged such powerful emotion within my heart but, reminiscing about the old times, I couldn't help comparing  this extraordinary young man to the men who'd previously swept their way in into my life and caused nothing but anger and frustration. 'Is he any different?' I couldn't help myself wondering. Is this just the Universe teaching us vital lessons about Life? Or is it written in each one of our destinies, to undergo pain and rejection, before obtaining our ultimate goal? Each time I've come across the one thing I most wanted, only to have it grabbed away from my reach. Is he any better than the first lesson, who'd tried to control his emotions by keeping them sealed away in a dark rotting chamber known as his 'heart'? Is he any different from the second who forced himself into my life only to retrace his steps like the maniac that he was? Could he be any different from the third who was just a player and nothing more? Does the game stop here or is the Knight of Wands just another pawn provided, to have me run around in never-ending circles? I dearly hope not since these challenges just weaken my resolve with every passing day.
He was the last one I noticed, amidst all the confusion of getting settled in Hell's Oven and making sense of the chaos created by the devil's helpers. I didn't notice him sitting there at the end, radiating a powerful aura of personal contentment and self-confidence. But when I finally did, nothing and no one around him shone as brightly and all I could do was stare and marvel at how splendid a creation he was. If only he'd know how hard I've tried to overcome the urge to reach out a hand and ruffle that magnificent mane of hair of his which so closely resembles a lion's. Many a time I've had to swallow a giggle at the way he attempts covering up silly errors with an exaggerated sense of masculinity. Please don't be just another one of the Universe's many lessons, beg my mind and heart in unison. He doesn't create a magnetic forcefield around him in my presence, like the fourth lesson. But he doesn't feign indifference which hurts just as much as rejection does. He's perfect just the way he is and I pray that this pure emotion we share doesnt just wilt away like leaves during fall, but fluorishes into a treasure worth cherishing for eons to come.

Top 5 Hottest Teen Stars Who's Lives Ended Tragically

1.River Phoenix

A dedicated animal-rights activist and environmentalist, River was a strict vegetarian and a member of PeTA. River was a talented musician as well as an actor, and he played guitar, sang, and wrote songs for his band, Aleka's Attic, which also included his sister Rain Phoenix, while living in Gainsville, Florida. Although the band never released its own album, their song "Across the Way" can be found on PeTA's "Tame Yourself" album, used to fight animal abuse. River was in the middle of filming Dark Blood, playing the character Boy when he died.

Cause of Death: Drug Overdose

2. Corey Haim

Canadian-born Haim broke into the Film industry in 1984 as a young child caught up in a family war in the hit movie Firstborn. The following year he starred in the TV movie A Time to Live, for which he received an award, and Silver Bullet. Lucas, in which he starred alongside Charlie Sheen showed his ability, but was not a big hit. In 1987 he had a breakthrough when he played one of the major roles in Joel Schumacher's The Lost Boys (1987), but his output during the nineties onwards was disappointing.

Cause of Death: Drug Overdose

3. Kurt Cobain

Kurt Cobain was born on February 20 1967, in Aberdeen, Washington. Kurt and his family lived in Hoquiam for the first few months of his life then later moved back to Aberdeen, where he had a happy childhood until his parents divorced. The divorce left Kurt's outlook on the world forever scarred. He became withdrawn and anti-social. He was constantly placed with one relative to the next, living with friends, and at times even homeless. Kurt was not the most popular person in high school as he was in public school, getting picked on by "jocks" and being labeled as "queer". In 1985 Kurt left Aberdeen for Olympia where he formed the band Nirvana in 1986. In 1989 Nirvana recorded their debut album Bleach under the independent label Sub-Pop records. Nirvana became very popular in Britain and by 1991 they signed a contract with Geffen.

Cause of Death: Suicide

4. Brad Renfro

Born in Knoxville, Tennessee on July 25, 1982, he was discovered at age 10 by director Joel Schumacher and was cast in the motion picture, The Client (1994) which starred Susan Sarandon and Tommy Lee Jones. Although this would be his zenith, he went on to appear in other films such as The Cure, Tom and Huck, Sleepers, and _Apt Pupil_ (1998). Renfro won "The Hollywood Reporter's Young Star Award" in 1995 and was nominated as one of People Magazine's "Top 30 Under 30", though addiction problems in his teens and early twenties led to several police arrests and hampered his career.

Cause of Death: Drug Overdose

5. Jonathan Brandis

Born in Danbury, Connecticut, USA, to Greg and Mary, Jonathan Brandis began his career at age 5, acting in television commercials. He appeared in small parts in several films and TV shows before his first starring role in the 1990 film The Neverending Story II: The Next Chapter (1990). He starred in popular films such as Ladybugs (1992) and starred as Lucas Wolenczak in Steven Spielberg's television series "SeaQuest 2032" (1993). He doubled up his high school courses so he could finish a year early to his role on SeaQuest. He died  in November 2003.

Cause of Death: Hanging

St. Augustine Church Ruins

The ruins of St. Augustine church is a very popular tourist attraction and one of the most spectacular monuments in Goa. The church was built in 1602 with the combined efforts of 12 Augustinians. They also built a convent besides the church. However, the Portuguese government in India put a ban on them and they abandoned the church and the convent. The Saint Augustine church was considered to be one of the greatest of three Augustinian churches. Now, only the ruins of the front portion of the church and magnificent tower remain.

The tower in the ruins of St. Augustine church is the main attraction. This huge tower reaches upto a staggering height of around 46 meters. It had four stories and was originally meant to be a belfry. The church had a giant bell that was removed and is now at the Church of our Lady of the Immaculate Conception located in Panaji. The church had eight beautifully adorned chapels and four decorated altars. There was also a convent attached to the church.

Around the year 1931, the church began to fall apart and the façade and half of the tower were lost. Thereafter, the church began to deteriorate rapidly and many parts fell off. The whole body of the church finally gave way due to neglect and natural forces. The portico and the tower are still present and look absolutely splendid despite being in ruins. The ruins of St. Augustine are visited by many tourists from all over the world, which was once the largest church in Goa.

Hell's Oven: The Devil's Helpers

They pray to the Almighty,
to keep them away from all Evil.
Yet I can't understand why,
money seems to be the only thing on their minds.

They pray for Love,
the pure platonic kind.
Yet  I can't understand why,
Hatred seems to be the only thing they harbour in their hearts.

They  pray for good Health,
and fewer visits to the Healer.
 Yet I can't understand why,
Pain seems to be the only thing their hands can inflict.

They pray for society to accept them as they are,
without any prejudice.
Yet I can't understand why,
they condemn people of race, religion and culture different from their own.

But what I do know for sure,
apart from these contradictions,
is that the God they pray to,
isn't who they would like us to believe.

Hell's Oven: My Very Own McDreamy

All this while I'd been busy getting used to life in Hell's Oven and getting dragged from one stinking lane choked with garbage to the other, when I was all of a sudden, confronted with the most valuable gem the Universe has to offer.

Love. I hadn't the first idea of how to approach this seemingly arrogant, brutally forthright and handsome man but I couldn't help dreaming about him day and night. His memory descends upon me in nightly dreams and our spiritual selves unite to consumate a sacred reunion. Or maybe that's just what it feels like. Have I found my soulmate? My twin flame? The one older to me? With him I no longer have a care in the world for the Devil and his hideous apprentices. His lower lip juts out in a way it makes him seem unyielding...even if only to protect what means the world to him. His eyes twinkle with mischief at having been able to pierce my heart repeatedly with his unforgiving sarcasm and his brilliant smile goes on for a mile, never really ending. He moves steadily but quickens his pace when needed. His hands are gentle and seemingly nurturing in their own masculine way. He doesn't try to show off on a bike or laugh boisterously on his cell phone to impress a pretty girl who passes by. He needs only to delve deep into his subject and talk passionately of its beauty to us...the ignoramus's of a deteriorating world. His soothing voice flows into my ear like a sweet melody created by the monsoonal rains, making me forget where I am... if only for a minute.

Will this love last until the end of time or just end prematurely like the others, with bitterness and grief remaining as its only souvenirs?

Only time will tell.

Three Years in Hell's Oven

What's the worst that could happen to you in a place which once thought of as 'Paradise' by you was in fact, an oven straight from the very depths of hell? And its inhabitants, no better than the Devil's little helpers? Well, this is a situation I've landed myself in and my pessimistic approach to life isn't helping much. Prince Charming is no where to be found, my fairy godmother drives me nuts with her 'consoling' words of advice pertaining to Deceit, Betrayal and Death and my own parents, the King and Queen of the land known as 'MyMind' keep flittering in and and out of my imagination while Satan's helpers are more than willing to carry out their diabolic plans. To make things worse, Satan can't resist waving my future degree in my face while making me walk on a bed of red-hot charcoal. A few days back I was so busy entertaining the thought of a new life and the complete destruction of my boring old one; I didn't see any of this coming. I wonder now what my definition of 'boring' really was. Three years in hell isn't worth a charred face, overboiled blood and a heart so black and burnt that its hardly recognisable. Why do I have to go through with this hell at all?Thats a good question and the answer is really very simple...to prepare for an even bigger one.

The Other Side of the Tracks (2008)

Spoiler alert!

Just watched this movie an hour back and I have to say that it is seriously underrated. It's not just a tragic love story; there's a lot more to it than meets the eye. The summary beside the trailer says : A depressed young man struggles to move on and escape haunting memories of his girlfriend, killed ten years ago in a train accident.

I figured out after watching it that the ghost of the man hangs in the fine line between life and death. In other words, he's in a coma. While in this comatose stage, he's visited by his best friend and highschool sweetheart, both of whom are also ghosts. His best friend encourages him to move on in life while his girlfriend pleads for him to join her in the afterlife. Not much happens throughout the film but things get pretty exciting towards the end.

We find out that that he's been lying in a hospital bed for a decade after surviving a car-train collision which killed both his friends. He never wakes up because he dies before he can. His late mother had plans for him but one major accident can not only destroy lives but can also wipe out all hopes for the future.

It makes you ponder over how futile life really is. Even the fact that Brendan Fehr's in it doesnt make the movie less depressing.

Top 5 Convincing Psychopaths in Films

1. Hannibal Lecter (The Silence of the Lambs)

The Movie
An ambitious FBI agent enlists the aid of a criminally insane ex-psychiatrist to help track down a vicious serial killer.
About him
A brilliant, genius psychologist and a vicious murderer at the same time.










2. Jack Torrance (The Shining)

The Movie
A family heads to an isolated hotel for the winter where an evil and spiritual presence influences the father into violence, while his psychic son sees horrific forebodings from the past and of the future.
About him
Jack is an extremely sympathetic character. His power as a protagonist lies in his deep desire, and great potential, to be a good person – a good father, a good husband, and a good writer. Yet, he's a tragic figure with very specific demons, namely his temper and the memory of his abusive father.


3. Michael Myers (Halloween)

The Movie
A psychotic murderer institutionalized since childhood escapes on a mindless rampage while his doctor chases him through the streets.
About him
A common characterization is that Michael Myers is evil. John Carpenter has described the character as "almost a supernatural force - a force of nature. An evil force that's loose," a force that is "unkillable".Professor Nicholas Rogers elaborates, "Myers is depicted as a mythic, elusive bogeyman, one of superhuman strength who cannot be killed by bullets, stab wounds, or fire."







4. Norman Bates (Psycho)

The Movie
A young woman steals $40,000 from her employer's client, and subsequently encounters a young motel proprietor too long under the domination of his mother.
About him
His character, suffering from severe mental illness as a result of years of abuse from his mother, appears normal to everyone else, as he presents himself as a humble business owner and son. His multiple personalities and deranged relationship with his mother lead him to kill anyone who threatens his mother’s wishes.






5. The Joker (Batman: The Dark Knight)

The Movie
Batman, Gordon and Harvey Dent are forced to deal with the chaos unleashed by an anarchist mastermind known only as the Joker, as he drives each of them to their limits.
About him
Its the insatiable lust for chaos and destruction that makes The Joker so scary. He is flesh and blood, he is not immortal, but it is his disregard and denial of such petty constraints that truly make him terrifying. In one pivotal scene, The Joker quietly but vehemently urges Batman to run him down with the Batpod, a collision that would surely kill The Joker. It is not his own survival that The Joker considers, but the assertion of chaos. To get Batman to break his one rule – to never resort to killing – would be The Joker’s ultimate victory.

What 2012 Means To You

EXAMPLE
Your Birthday is October 10th and the year is 2012
13 December 2011 = 13 + 12+ 2011 = 1+3+1+2+4= 2
Hence your Personal Number is 2

What Each Personal Year Number Means:

1 Personal Year
New beginnings, new ideas, increased vitality

A 1 personal year brings new beginnings and new ideas. It is a time to launch new projects, conceive new businesses, embark on new relationships. You may find that things that have been important in the last decade or so lose their importance now as new ideas take their place. In a 1 personal year, you are setting the stage for the next nine years of your life. This is not a time to sit back and wait for things to happen. You will have the opportunity to start making things happen. The things that you do and dream this year contain the seeds for the plants that will grow over the next nine years. A personal 1 year also often brings increased physical vitality.

2 Personal Year
Cooperation, Continuation, Nurturing, Development

A 2 personal year can be frustrating after the intense energy and excitement of a 1 year. This is the year that seeds start to grow – the projects and relationships you've begun require nurturing and patience. This is a year to keep plugging away, slowly and steadily, while you continue to build on your dreams. In a 2 personal year, the focus may be on relationships of all kinds as well. It's not uncommon for new relationships to start and old ones to end during this personal year.

3 Personal Year
Expansion, Successes, Blossoming

In a 3 year, you'll begin to see the fruits of your labor. The 3 year is a social year full of excitement and creativity. You may find yourself involved in a whirl of activities, social, business and romantic. Your enthusiasm is contagious this year, and others will be drawn to you by it. Successes seem to fall into your lap in every area of your life, and opportunities to expand your circles will abound. The biggest issue you may face in a 3 personal year is an overabundance of opportunities. Keeping your focus may be difficult when there is so much to choose from. The 3 personal year many times can result in a person feeling as though they are having to deal with everyone else's problems, yet are feeling as though they have little time to focus on their own. It's important that the focus go toward the self first, and then if energy and time is left over to bring the attention to others.

4 Personal Year
Foundation, Maintenance, Responsibility

4 is the number of the Square, the four-sided figure that provides a strong foundation for building. A 4 year may seem dull and restrictive, but it's the time when you are cementing your foundations and solidifying everything you've accomplished in the past three years. This is the year that you will become aware of the responsibilities and work required to maintain the momentum needed to build your dreams. A 4 year is an ideal year to take a close look at your finances and physical needs and do what you have to ensure that your needs are met.

5 Personal Year
Independence, Freedom, Personal Rewards, Change

The 5 is the most sensual and creative of all numbers. It is also the most self-indulgent. A 5 year offers rewards that grow from your efforts of the past four years – or deviate wildly from them. Opportunities for travel, enrichment and excitement will often come your way in a 5 personal year. This is a great year to launch yourself from last year's foundation. If you built a solid foundation in the past year, you'll find that this year brings rich rewards.
If, however, a solid foundation was not built you may find yourself unintentionally swept away in the chaos of sudden and/or unexpected change and you may have little to no control over it. Thus, the hard work of the four year is extremely important to ensure that the five year is a year of joy, fun, and pleasure.

6 Personal Year
Love, Family, Responsibility, and Home

Romance, family and friends take on a great deal of importance in a 6 year. You'll find the focus on domestic matters, and love interests are often highlighted during a 6 years. This is the year that many people meet their soul mate (or life mate), and friends that you make during a 6 year will often be friends for life. This is also a year where responsibility comes into focus. You may pick up new responsibilities or you may find yourself completing and letting go of old ones. Chances are both will be occurring in some form or another.

7 Personal Year
Reflection, Spirituality and Self-analysis

During a 7 year, the focus often turns to the inside. Self-reflection and refinement grow in importance. Many people find themselves questioning the purpose of their lives, and turning toward spirituality. A 7 year is a good time to spend time alone, getting in touch with what really matters and how to accomplish it.

8 Personal Year
Health, Wealth and Attraction

The 8 is a double 4, and in an 8 year you could feel a bit stodgy and bound by responsibility. On the other hand, you'll also often find that your foundation and building of the past seven years has borne an abundance of fruit and it is easy to attract all the things that you want. After the personal reflection of last year, however, you may be starting to feel as if it just isn't enough. As the 8 year continues, you may find yourself feeling restless and ready to move on to something new. Be careful of conflict during this year, as power struggles are not only possible, but very likely. It's important, this year, to learn when to "fight" and when to "just let it go." These decisions will largely impact if and when you end up reaping the previously mentioned rewards.

9 Personal Year
Completion, Resolution, End of an Era

The 9 personal year brings you to the end of a personal cycle and invites you to take stock of where you are and where you want to go. This is the year that you'll be resolving many of the experiences and issues of the past in preparation for beginning the cycle anew. This can be an unsettling time, where you feel as if you've outgrown your life, but haven't quite released your responsibilities and ties to the past yet.

5 Vampire Films Way Better Than Twilight

1. The Lost Boys

Recently divorced Lucy packs up her belongings and, along with teenaged sons Michael and Sam, moves in with her eccentric father, who lives in the Northern California town of Santa Cruz. Rumored to be the "Murder Capital of the World," the town is dominated by an old amusement park. Michael, the older of the boys, becomes infatuated with a beautiful girl who introduces him to a strange gang of teen bikers led by David. As it turns out, the teens are vampires and Michael becomes one of them.

2. Salem's Lot (1979)

Salem’s Lot is loosely based on the great Stephen King novel of the same title. Salem’s Lot is a town which a new member, Mr. Straker, has taken as his new “home”, and has a mysterious partner, namely Mr. Barlow. Not too long after Straker arrives in Salem’s Lot, people start disappearing from sight and dying from odd causes. No one is sure why, including Ben Mears who is in town to write a new book on the town’s rumored haunted house, which hides a terrible secret.

3. Let The Right One In

Oskar, a bullied 12-year old, dreams of revenge. He falls in love with Eli, a peculiar girl. She can't stand the sun or food and to come into a room she needs to be invited. Eli gives Oskar the strength to hit back but when he realizes that Eli needs to drink other peoples blood to live he's faced with a choice. How much can love forgive?

4. Near Dark
 

Caleb, a restless young man from a small farm town, meets an alluring drifter named Mae. She reveals herself to be a vampire, who "turns" Caleb into one of her kind rather than kill him. But the rest of her "family" is slow to accept the newcomer. The ancient leader, Jesse, and his psychotic henchman Severen lay down the law; Caleb has to carry his own weight or die. However, he can't bring himself to kill. He manages to win the gang's approval when he rescues them from certain death in a daytime gunfight during a spectacular motel shoot-out in which every bullet hole lets in a deadly ray of sunlight. When the vampires threaten Caleb's real family, he's forced to choose between life and death.

5. Jennifer's Body

A horror film with a wicked sense of humor, Jennifer's Body is about small town high school student Jennifer, who is possessed by a hungry demon. She transitions from being "high school evil" - gorgeous, stuck up and ultra-attitudinal - to the real deal: evil/evil. The glittering beauty becomes a pale and sickly creature jonesing for a meaty snack, and guys who never stood a chance with her, take on new luster in the light of Jennifer's insatiable appetite. Meanwhile, Jennifer's lifelong best friend Needy, long relegated to living in Jennifer's shadow, must step-up to protect the town's young men.